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A vibrator. He gave me a vibrator. One that Pete helped him pick out. Just...my god, I'm speechless.

I've never owned a sex toy of any sort in my life and now not only do I have one, but Pete knows I do, and I can't even look at the thing without thinking of the two of them discussing it. If there's anything less sexy on earth than the mental image of Pete Sweet rambling on about sex with that idiot grin on his face, I can't think of it.

I just hope Victor decided upon it on a whim, and not as a subtle hint that he's getting bored with our sex life.
I enjoy the holidays every year, but I have to admit that it's also a relief when they're over. It was especially nerve-wracking this year with my family meeting Victor's mother for the first time. At the time, I was slightly put out that my parents only stayed for hors d'oeuvres, because they had dinner reservations at the Dorchester, but it was a blessing in disguise. Even having them in the flat that long was enough to put me on edge. Within the first fifteen minutes, my mother had already complained about the size of our flat and my cooking.

Sometimes I wish my parents would come to London more often, and then when I actually spend time with them, I remember I'm quite happy that we're usually a country apart. ...Ah, that sounds so childish. It's just very frustrating knowing that no matter what I do, there will always be some fault found in it.

Regardless, Christmas Day was very nice. Victor got me a lot of new spices, and I've been researching some dishes I'd like to try. We'll have to have a dinner party sometime soon. He also got me another gift, which I'm not even going to mention...though I am going to post a picture of him as a teenager I found when putting together a photo album for his gift.

It's hardly even revenge to post this, once you see how cute he wasCollapse )

I've been doing a lot of baking this season as well. I feel like I spent days piping out macarons! They make for such a great gift, though. Who doesn't like getting homemade baked goods? The most difficult part is just trying to keep Victor from eating them before I can give them away ;)

That reminds me: June, when would you like to meet up this week to exchange gifts?

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As much as I love Victor with all of my heart, it's rather alarming to think that in less than a year we'll be married and we're still so incredibly poor at communicating sometimes. Or rather, that Victor is still so bad at communicating with me.

I know he's upset about something, because he's been acting odd ever since we went on the tour of the Orchardleigh Estate, but whenever I ask him what the matter is, he just insists that he's fine. I don't know how he can possibly expect me to believe that when that night he fell asleep with his back to me, sucking his thumb. He's not exactly difficult to read, but if he won't tell me what the matter is, I can't make him.

I just hope it's more than him having a tantrum about my not immediately giving into the wedding venue he wants. I've let him have his way on nearly everything else so far.

Oct. 13th, 2013

Judging by Victor's journal entry, you'd think I dragged him to the gallery yesterday morning at gunpoint. In actuality, I told him he didn't even need to come in if he didn't want to, but he told me he'd be bored if I was at work and he was alone at the flat, so he decided to come in anyway...and then complained the entire day about it. Go figure.

We're still at odds on choosing a wedding venue. I've given in to the idea of getting married in England, because it really would be a hassle having the thing in France and dealing with flying everyone out there, but Victor still wants to do it at Eltham Palace, whereas I'm leaning toward the Orchardleigh Estate. Look at the website, it's a beautiful house. How could anyone not want to get married there? Victor thinks it's too posh though, and not unique enough.

If he's looking for something unique and not posh, I'm not sure he's marrying the right bloke to begin with, because I don't exactly fit that bill ;)
I'd like to thank all of our friends who came out for our engagement party last weekend, and especially June for hosting it. That certainly was quite a surprise! I'm amazed she was able to plan the entire thing without anyone leaking any news about it to us.

June gave us a very thoughtful gift as well--a basket of various snack foods to sample; chocolates and cheeses and such, and coffee mugs with our initials on them. I was touched by the gesture, considering throwing a party for us was more than enough to begin with!

Wedding planning continues this weekend, with looking at local venues. I'd still prefer France, but I told Victor I'd keep an open mind about the whole thing. We're going to tour Eltham Palace, and I have to admit I do like the art deco feel of it, judging by their website.

Aside from wedding planning, I've also been spending my time revising for a big exam in my flight class. It's the last one before they let us actually go up in a plane with an instructor, so I'm hoping I do well on it.
My flying lessons are quite fun so far. I had my first written exam last week and think I did very well on it. I wasn't sure how I'd do in a school environment considering it's been so long since uni, but I've adjusted to it very quickly. We've started doing airplane simulators as well. I can't wait until I can get into an actual plane with an instructor.

Victor and I have also made some strides on our wedding planning. We've decided on our wedding colours finally--navy blue and yellow, with some white accents. Now that we have our colours and the invitations we'd like to send out sorted, I'd like to finalise a date and location so we can actually get said invitations printed, but Victor and I haven't been able to agree on where to have it. He wants something in London, whereas I like the idea of getting married in France. My parents own a fair amount of land and I've always liked the idea of getting married in their rather large back garden. I suppose the only thing to do is make a pro and con list for both.

Perhaps we ought to look into hiring a wedding planner as well, instead of trying to take this entire task on ourselves. There is a lot more to plan and think about than I ever imagined.


Thank you to everyone who came out to dinner with me for my birthday last month, it was nice seeing you all. I had a very nice birthday this year; it's much more relaxing just having dinner with friends instead of feeling obligated to have a party, and I appreciated the cake Victor baked for me, even if it didn't quite turn out like the picture in the cookbook ;)

Victor also surprised me with a very thoughtful gift. I'd mentioned a few times just in passing that I've always thought it'd be amazing to learn to fly, but I'd never really looked into it before because it always seemed like such a big time and money investment to get a pilot's license. On my birthday he surprised me by telling me he'd signed me up for flying lessons. The school is in North London and it seems like it's a very good program--you start off in a classroom learning the basics and using a simulator before working up to going out with an instructor in a private jet. It's only a few hours a week, so it's something I can easily fit into my schedule.

The first class is next Saturday, and I'm really looking forward to it, though I'm a little nervous as well. I haven't been in a classroom since university, and that was about a decade ago.
By now I'm sure all of you have heard about Victor and my engagement, since he's spoken of little else the last month. Thank you for the well wishes we've received so far! After procrastinating for a few weeks, I finally broke the news to my parents last weekend. My mother wasn't as displeased as I'd imagined. Perhaps after my having been with Victor for five years, she's finally coming around to the idea ;)

My birthday is coming up in three weeks, and considering Victor and I have already been busy starting to plan our wedding, the thought of throwing another party seems slightly overwhelming. I suggested just having a few people over for dinner, but apparently cooking your own birthday dinner is frowned upon.

Maybe I'll just go out to dinner, then. I'm thinking the 28th will be best, since it's a Friday. Anyone who would like to come along is invited. I haven't decided yet where I'd like to go, but I'm open to suggestions!

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Victor and I leave in a few hours for Heathrow. We'll be in Paris by this afternoon and I'll be proposing by this evening.

I'm not panicking. I'm not panicking. I'm not panicking.

May. 5th, 2013

It's amazing how time can get away from you. Victor and I have been very busy with the gallery lately. In Victor's last journal entry he mentioned that we've started working with Ruby, the woman who makes and photographs the edible art pieces. We're planning a show together this summer with a sort of combined multimedia format. Victor and my paintings will be recreated with her edible art. With a new show on the horizon, Victor and I have been spending a lot of our free time in the studio planning and painting new pieces.

It just occurred to me the other day that we're a few months shy of the gallery having been open a year now. The idea of us running our own gallery seemed so frightening and uncertain at first, but now it's just business as usual.

I think it's easy to become almost complacent in life when you have a routine without anything too new or big to challenge yourself. I've been giving that quite a bit of thought lately, and I'm planning to make some positive changes to my life which I think will shake things up a little.